Why Only Now?

Dear God, please forgive me.

I always liked this hymn that goes like this:

"when you're down and out and you need a helping hand;
when nothing seems to go right anymore;
come down to the waters;
and i will give you life;
i will be your soul provider;
i will be your holy saviour;
i will be your beginning and your end"

suddenly, i feel lost.
people around me are doing much better than i am.
it's not like as if i didnt put in enough effort.
okay, maybe i shouldnt ask for too much.
yes, i am satisfied with GP and Econs.
but not with math.
math has always been my forte.
why did i have to screw it up at the A level exams?
this will live with me for life.
how am i gonna face my maths teacher?
and hello.. im a math relief teacher okay. WTH!

*screwed*

But, God has been talking to me.
He blessed me with 2 verses which I read yesteday while doing my quiet time.

"And he said, 'the Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, chief priests and teachers of the law, and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life"

Luke 9:22

"Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and again and you will rejoice, and no one will take away your joy"

John 16:22

Jeffery gave me this verse which i also treasure alot. It means alot to me at this point in time.

"God has a plan for you. One to prosper you and not to harm you."

I really thank all those who gave me assurance.
Some people say that my grades are okay.
But different people have different expectations.
I'm sorry to say that I have high expectations but have yet to live up to it.

To me, I FAILED MY A LEVELS.