阿公,安息了

Ah gong (gong gong's younger brother) passed away last wednesday morning at 9.22am.
I must say that when i got to know the news from mum, i didnt shed any tear.
I guess it's because I was prepared for his departure and that I was sure that he was relieved of all his pain.

However, i started to miss him.... .....

Was at the kodak shop printing out my photos from the digi cam when i heard the news...
Suddenly, an array of thoughts went thru my mind......
did i spend time with him?
when was the last time i talked to him?
I didnt even call out to him when i visited him at the hospital on sunday night. I was too sad to see him in that state that i hurried out of the ward. He looked at me and i just raised my hand as a form of greeting. I just couldnt take the sight... He had problems breathing and needed oxygen aid. I went out of the ward praying... I prayed that God would grant him the strength to hold on. Immediately messaged my friends to ask for their help in prayers...

God gave Ah Gong a superb Monday.
Thank You.
He laughed and joked.
I regretted not being able to be there.
The last words that Ah por and Ah gong exchanged was "see you tomorrow".
But there was never a tomorrow.
Ah Gong passed away the next morning.
I am still sad.
I am.

Funeral took place on Friday.
Almost the whole extended family was there except some freakin people. Im sorry for the harshness here but i seriously think that they should ought to be ashamed of themselves. The worst thing: I doubt they even feel ashamed.
My gut feeling tells me that the higher u climb, the less sentimental you get.

IS EVERY MINUTE OF YOUR LIFE SO PRECIOUS AND VALUABLE THAT U CANNOT EVEN TAKE ONE HOUR OFF TO SEND YOUR UNCLE/GRANDUNCLE OFF?!?!
I MEAN PLS LA... IT'S THE LAST TIME!! THE LAST TIME!!!
IF U THINK UR TIME IS SO VALUABLE, I CANT HELP IT BUT SAY THAT U ARE WORTHLESS!!! COLD-BLOODED CREATURES!!

"Ah Gong, rest in peace.
We will miss you.
In my heart, u're the most jovial and amicable granduncle i've ever had - i swear.
Do watch over us.
Ah Por is fine under our care. Don't worry too much.
She was distraught on friday, asking why you didnt take her with you.
But she's fine now. She'll get used to her new life soon.
I hope you can enjoy yourself wherever you are now.
God Bless You."

也许这是我对阿公说过最长的话... ... 后悔... ... 十分后悔... ...