Night falls

This night, I'm pondering about many issues.
I'm suppose to be asleep but was jolted up by an sms.
Shucks. Should have switched off my phone so that i wouldn't have any form of disturbance to my beauty sleep. At this age, I swear, I'm still doing the wrong things at the inappropriate time.
Like now, i'm getting quite emo.

Sometimes I wonder if staying in Sheares Hall was ever a right choice.
I always thank Cindy for signing me up for the secc camp where i once thought uni life started on a good note. Not that things are terrible now, it's just that i have a couple of regrets. (cindy dear, i am still thankful =P) These 5 months, frankly speaking, have been rosey. I felt kinda blessed initially, thanking God for this journey. However, as time went by, I began to see the facade surfacing and sadness fills me. At times, i feel like people are taking things for granted which makes me feel real stupid and naive.

Hello!?! It's THE REAL WORLD you're living in! Ernnie, WAKE UP! Stop living in your lala land!
Somebody, smack me!! It's time to come to a realization that things cannot function the way you
want it to.

It's time to believe in myself. However, I'm not gonna follow my heart because it always leads me along a wrong path. I dont want me to end up SCREWED.

But it's tough. It's tough when you're already in it. It's worst when you can't seem to hop out of it.