I am sorry.
I made my mother disappointed.
I feel like SHIT now. total SHIT.

It's been a really tiring journey.
I am tired.
Ma's unhappy but she doesn't really wanna say it.
And i am really sorry.

Hall has sucked so much out of me that i'm blinded by it.
It has deprived me of family time.
Quality time with my family.
Mum once said that i only turn to them in times of need.
I can't help but agree.
This sucks.
Why have i become like this?

This night, i cried.
For being defiant (didnt realise it till nw).
For being indifferent towards her feelings.
I don't want to be like that.
I want the old ernnie to come back.