at 3.18am...

Love my collage! It's in my room in hall! =)

Anyway, there were many times when i thought my impression of her would change.
I gave her umpteen chances. Well, I gave myself many chances too.
However, as much as I tried to believe that she was friendly and nice, situations made me think otherwise.
Communication always seems to be a problem.
It's what i would call 'surface' conversations where you talk because you have to or else the situation would be awkward.
There would be this weird stare.
Why so? I seriously don't know.
I wonder what she thinks of me... ...
Or maybe it's just me?
Sometimes, you don't reciprocate my friendliness.
It makes me feel like crap u know.

Honestly, what has happened, HAS happened.
I knew this day would come.
If only it DIDN'T happen... then life would be great (as usual).
Has something new happened?
I don't know. But I hope I am kept updated for I'd be sad if I wasn't.
(or maybe MORE SAD if i was told)

Dearie, how i wish you were here with me.

Looking into your eyes
I turn away
The heart skips a beat
And the mind's in disarray

I nearly blurted out to you
Those few words i felt so true
On this very night I pray,
God grant me the courage to say.

Consequences to bear
I thought about it, I swear.
The endless fun we had
The joy and laughter we shared.

I didn't want the journey to end
For it was great being with you my friend.
Sadly i feel it coming through
And now I'm feeling blue... ...